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Motoko Kusanagi


May 18th, 2006

News and a confession of sorts @ 07:48 am

Current Mood: calm calm

I've graduated from college with a B.S. in Biology. But that's not important to this post.

This confession is not a confession in the traditional sense of one confessing what one has done wrong. It is a confession in the sense that I'm going to self-disclose something deeply personal.

I am a sapphist, a lesbian. I am attracted to other women, romantically and aesthetically. When I was a young child I wanted to be the "prince" (strong, noble, and brave) and rescue the princess (someone gentle and feminine I could adore), and I still do to this day.

Yes I've dated men, even kissed and more than that that - but it's always felt "not right" and artificial. I used to tell myself that was just some sort of a failing on my part. But now I understand myself better.

It's odd, I had suspected it for a while, but normally wrote it off as "well, most people are bisexual to some degree, I guess I find < insert name of girl > hot (or hott if you're a young person :-p) for that reason, and I'm just very picky about guys, that's why I can only think of one that I've ever found attractive to any degree."

It's odd, despite this likely making my life harder (homophobic parents), I get an odd sense of ease from recognizing and acknowledging it. It's like a piece to the puzzle that is "self" to me.
 
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From:dungeonwriter
Date:May 18th, 2006 03:04 pm (UTC)
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Congradulations on recognizing a wonderful aspect of the amazing person you are.
From:kusanagimotoko
Date:May 19th, 2006 03:11 am (UTC)
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I will never be able to express how much your support has meant to me over these last few weeks, you are a truly great friend.
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From:komichi
Date:May 19th, 2006 01:51 am (UTC)
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Congrats on graduation! What do you think you'll do next, if you don't mind my asking?

Of course, congratulations for recognizing that little part of yourself. :D
From:kusanagimotoko
Date:May 19th, 2006 03:09 am (UTC)
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I'm currently seeking employment. :-) I've got a few leads for jobs I just need to finish being lazy and finish my resume and send it off.

Thanks, I'm amazed at how supportive people are, it really means the world to me.
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From:sapphire_knight
Date:May 19th, 2006 03:30 am (UTC)
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Sorry about your parents being like that. :\
From:kusanagimotoko
Date:May 19th, 2006 11:54 am (UTC)
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It's not that bad, true to the form of most homophobes, they generally hate homosexual men (i.e. think they should be prosecuted) and ignore lesbians (i.e. think they should just not come out of the closet) for the most part. It could be much worse.

草薙素子

Motoko Kusanagi